Chi's Pen

Have you every had something in your life that held control over you? It could be something physical, emotional, or even mental. No matter what form it was, it still held you back from being your best you.

If you search the wonderful internet you will see all these sites telling us that F.E.A.R has been given the acronym of False Evidence Appearing Real among many others but this one applies. For clarity there is F.E.A.R. and then there is fear. Fear an unpleasant often strong emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger. Then there is F.E.A.R. described in an article in oprah.com as self-generated fear which gives us the acronym listed above.

Whichever fear you identify with, it doesn’t change the fact it is still going to be your fear. When you are in fear, you don’t take the time to try and decipher which emotion of fear you are in, it is all the same in that moment. It is either going to cause you some form of pain or you are going to work yourself into a fit that will cause you to be uncomfortable. Fear is fear, be it physical or the kind you have convinced yourself there would be.

I wrestled back and forth on posting this because I felt it was a personal matter and thought readers would not understand, but what I post in my blog is always personal to me, so no changing now here is my truth moment. After 17 years, the thing I feared the most, the thing that caused me to look over my shoulder before I made a move, the thing that scared me out of my sleep at night, and the thing that made me hold my breath has died. My first reaction was a sigh of relief. It was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. My second reaction was tears, this is an emotion I can’t explain. Why was I shedding a tear over something that was causing me to be afraid. Why was I was shedding a tear over something that broke me down and made me question my being. I still don’t have the answer and I may never get it. What I do have the answer to is knowing you can’t come back from death, death is final. The Death of Fear is permanent. Goodbye fear, I hope you got it right.

Chi’s Pen

http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/fear.

https://www.oprah.com/spirit/transform-your-fear-into-courage/all